have you ever felt the need to just crawl up and sleep forever in the corner of your room. away from everything. it's only been three days since school started and i feel unaccomplished and a failure ALREADY. i don't even know if i can commit to being a nurse anymore. can i be one? will i be good at it? i don't know if its the work load thats scaring me or if i am truly having second thoughts.
i'm lacking in sleep. i'm taking everything personal. i can't stand anything anymore. college is suppose to be the best four years of your life, yet its slowly draining the life out of me. just because, i don't know if i can do it. i just want to sleep.
i don't know whats wrong with me. i had an amazing breakdown the other night. amazing because i released everything i have held in over the past year. amazing because it was with someone i confide in as well as understands everything i am going through. i wish you could all meet this person. shes one of the strongest people i know, i wish we each could have a piece of her because of all the benefits we would gain.
besides nursing, the biggest and most important thing that is bothering me is God. my faith is in shambles. sure, i go to church every sunday. but i never pay attention to whats going on. i do all the motions and responses, yet i know its not good enough. i need to be back to where i was with God when i was in highschool. my lifes crumbling.
i need a passion in life.
i wish i knew what the future held.
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