"I almost wish we were butterflies and liv'd but three summer days - three such days with you I could fill with more delight than fifty common years could ever contain." --Keats
i miss you girls so much. and after such a crazy week i would love to just see each one of you and be engulfed by you. beth with your deep compassionate eyes, meghan with your goofy laugh, and amanda with your undying reassurance in that smile of yours.

can you believe its already Holy Week. This has to be one of my favorite times of the year. not only do we realize how much God loves us, but we get to express that to others. by having God give his only Son to the world to die for our sins is magnificent. the trials and suffering Jesus went through so we could be born without sin is heart wrenching. it is simply amazing that we have an opportunity to grow in our faith through Jesus by preaching His word and doing wonderous deeds. so what are we waiting for?!

"God so loved the world he gave his only begotten son so that whoever believes in him may have everlasting life" -- John 3:16

this week has definately been a whirlwind of trials and sadness and overwhelming moments...so God has definately struck again. He doesn't give us anything we can't handle but sometimes i feel like He likes to question our strength.
-----> for school, i'm in maternity, med surg, nursing research, pharmacology, and then fundamentals of acting (haha random i know). i've been doing pretty well in all of them, except maternity. we just took a test on wednesday that i didn't do good on. and with that, i had to withdraw from the class. not only was that heartbreaking in and of itself, but now it sets me behind a whole year. its opens alot of doors for me and sometimes i just wish i knew what the future held. do i go partime evening program and graduate a semester later. or do i wait until next year to take the course and pick up a minor to fill up my time, which sets me back a whole year. or do i drop my major and just pick up psych and graduate on time. i had a talk with my mom and we've decided that i know the material. its just that i do not know how to answer the critical thinking questions (which all of the tests are). which then makes me wonder if i have a learning disability and if i go on with nursing, am i able to pass the other classes. its extremely difficult and it was such an emotional day for me of just being overwhelmed, crying, and just plain out feeling unworthy and stupid.
alot of people in my class are in the same position. and in no way, shape, or form am i comparing myself to others. its a difficult path i chose to follow, but am i able to go on?

God has plans for us and we just have to truth in His ways and start following. but i'm the type of person who needs to know everything in advance...so this is litteraly tearing me down and honestly have no idea where to go with this.

lets just say, i agree with beth's latest blog and i cannot wait until summertime, when the livin' easy and i am able to breathe more freely.